Choice

My fantasy was

kittens playing on the lawn

one you

one me

 

we are in love

and decide to start

a family

 

or there is the one with him

 

and a different life

the shaman’s way

the road long

the hours dissolving

the days flushed

one upon the other

the growth constant

the ideal Real-ized

 

Here

I am caught

between visions

here

a choice is upon me

here

the ordeals

flank me

here

I learn what it takes

to choose

 

what I lose

what I gain

again and again

 

only love.